Dead On My Feet
A couple weeks ago I started a new medication. I’ll be on it long term if things work out but if things don’t work out then it’s not a big deal if I stop using it. The big deal right now is the side effects. I feel dead! And a bit queasy and dizzy most of the day.
Omeprazole gave worse side effects and they went away after a time so I know this is doable. It’s just getting through it that’s the hard part.
This month is going to be a failure I think. Not an epic failure and not a complete failure but a failure. I’ve skipped whole days of the Beginner’s 2.0 Calendar and the days I’ve done, I skipped some of the videos. When I’m only supposed to do 1-2 videos and skipping 1-2 videos, that’s pretty sad.
I’m healthy, just unbelievably tired. The queasiness and dizziness are getting a bit better I think…I hope.
One thing I refuse to skip no matter how tired I am during the day is the 30-Day Butt Lift Challenge. I’m on target with that at least. And with the weather nicer these days I’m taking walks again. Very short walks to my son’s school and back, but walking is walking and it gets in a mile so that’s something.
I gained some weight in the beginning too and I look like I’m retaining water around my gut but that’s okay. This too shall pass. There are so many things to stress over in my life right now that I’m not going to add this to the list as well.
- husband’s job
- my prospective part-time job
- agent’s silence when she promised me a reply
It all boils down to waiting waiting waiting. Too much waiting. And it’s all too important. I’m going crazy but I act like I’m not.
I’m also working on my self-image. So despite knowing that I’m chunkier around the middle, I listen to All About The Bass by Meghan Trainor and enjoy shaking my tush. That’s pretty helpful too.
Oh! And I’ll share a rare Mommy Moment here because it was just too nice not to share it with the world. Every morning I wake my son up by tickling him and buzzing him so he’ll wake up smiling and laughing. Some mornings are harder than others to accomplish this but this morning was pretty easy and then the first words out of his mouth were, “I love you, Mommy!” And then he gave me a hug. Aww! His eyes were still closed and everything. It was so sweet!!!